Inhabiting My Repleteness

A poem celebrating the repleteness that we are in each and every moment.
Image courtesy of Skitterphoto.

 

Today I am replete.

 

A regular Sunday. No distinguishing features.

 

My body is tired. The sky bleak. The road in

front of my house a darker grey where the

rain is yet to evaporate.

 

I am at home.

Just me and my cat. Him

asleep in a different room.

 

Alone in the quiet and

stillness of my kitchen with its

high-ceiling and patchy walls,

I am replete.

 

There is the warmth of the

kerosene stove at my back, the

solid weight of my mug glazed

the dark blue-black of night filled

with hojicha in my hand.

 

My back to the washing

machine, I see before me

two tall vases of flowers. The

yellow lilies I bought in celebration

of spring fading now; the two-

tone carnations and purple

heather still holding their

own. Above a picture painted

in rich and beautiful colors by my

friend, an incredible artist.

 

All around and in the air the

sounds of silence: the windows gently

murmuring as the wind rocks

them in their frames, the kettle on

the kerosene stove humming

along, the background undertone of

the fridge.

 

A hint of rain in the air

even now, and the song of

the Universe in my ears.

 

All is still.

 

All is replete with beauty.

 

It seems that – in this moment –

everything is perfect.

 

Perhaps it is.

 

There are lands afar and vistas

of beauty I want to lose myself

in; sacred connection and partnership

I’m eager to experience; dreams

and visions bubbling up to be

born through me.

 

So much that still wants to be expressed.

 

So much still to experience.

 

So much joy, love, beauty,

pleasure, majesty, awe

to encounter anew.

 

And yet…

 

In this moment as I sit, quietly

and fully inhabiting this space

of  deep-seated presence, I’m

Whole and Complete.

 

I feel the pulse of Life

beating in my heart, connecting

me to the awareness of all

that is good in my life. I feel

my connection with something

beyond what can be seen with the

eyes or perceived with the mind – it

fills me with a deep-rooted peace.

 

Connects me to the heart of

Silence and All That Is.

 

 

 

Featured image courtesy of Skitterphoto.

The painting mentioned in the poem courtesy of Rozanne Henry‘s Etsy Store.

 

 

Honouring My All

I want to honour

the All That Is In Me.

 

I want to honour

the Sacredness in the Everyday.

 

I want to honour

the Beauty and Perfection of each Moment.

 

I want to honour

the Awe and Majesty I feel instilled in Presence.

 

I want to honour

the sense of Wonder within me.

 

I want to honour

my fullest Self-expression, my ceaseless unfolding.

 

I want to honour

that which wishes to be brought into Being through me.

 

I want to honour

that which has been, that which is yet to come.

 

I want to honour

that which is ready to be released, wishes to fall away.

 

I want to honour the Eternal,

the Infinite Source of Well-Being.

 

I want to honor the Breath of Life breathing through me.

 

I want to honor

the Highest, Purest Essence and Expression of Self.

 

I want to honour Truth.

 

I want to honour Beauty.

 

I want to honour

the All That I Am;

 

the Sacred sigh that says

Yes to Life

Yes to Me.

Deep In The Heart Of The Sacred Feminine

 

Deep in the heart of the

Sacred Feminine

I discovered I am

“Woman.”

 

She has her roots in

the hallowed space of the

womb; roots that burrow

deep into the heart of Mother

Earth and connect with

Gaia at Her core.

 

She is a coming

together of all the women

from all the places and all

the times. The embodiment

of all our desires and

dreams, distilled into the

highest expression of

feminine essence.

 

She courses through my

veins, stirring my blood to a

frenzy with Her deep connection to the

Earth; Her deep connection to

the Universe; Her deep connected

passion for life that awakens

in me a reverence, a passion,

an awe, and a deep-

rooted ease in Being.

 

Her sensuous pleasure

in All That Is; Her deep

appreciation of beauty; Her

knowing and intuitive

wisdom – enliven me. Awakening

a deep joy – an exquisite feeling

of unsurpassed bliss.

 

When I am connected to Her, I

know Myself.

 

I know that

All Is Well.

 

I know myself One with my ancestors.

One with the Universe.

One with the Earth.

 

I know myself Woman:

One woman.

One with all Women.

 

I know Myself as Strength;

as Power; as Flow; as

Beauty; as Shadow; as

Joy; as Sensual; as Intuitive;

as Expressive; as Wise;

as a deep and fervent Love

and longing for Life.

 

I know Myself as the Sacred

Breath that moves all things.

 

I know Myself as Spirit

made incarnate as Woman.

 

This is not what the world has

told me about “woman.”

 

The world would have me

believe she is meek, tame,

seen before heard; prized for her

beauty, not her words. Revered as

long as she can be captured and

“stilled” in art. Highly sought

out for her tenderness and

the gentle smile playing on her

lips – as long as they don’t

part in contradiction of the

prevailing (patriarchal) wisdom.

 

Or perhaps over-sensitive, over-

emotional, over-demanding; in

a word (or two): “Too much.”

 

Needing “too much”

attention; taking up “too

much” time, “too much”

space with an intensity of

feeling that flows in

torrents and dances to

an unfathomable rhythm

all her own.

 

You can’t reason with

a woman like that. She’s

“too much.”

 

But the question that nobody’s been

asking:

“Too much” for whom?

 

Or perhaps she represents

the embodiment of the Virgin

archetype. Good and pure;

wholesome; steeped in

virtue. She has taken on – tries

to uphold – society’s idea of “A

woman of good moral conduct.”

 

Such shame she has

internalized. Such guilt; such

unworthiness; such complex,

conflicting emotions around

her body and making love.

 

How can she grow into the

fullest expression of her

womanhood and know

herself as the transcendent

being she is when she’s

been so sundered from

her sensuality?

 

How can we have

sundered her so?

 

How can we have bereft

ourselves of this connection

to our feminine essence;

disinheriting ourselves

from our birthright; the deep pure

well of our feminine place of

power and presence?

 

 

Other times she’s portrayed

as a bottomless pit of

neediness; fueled by

insecurities and a deep-

seated fear of rejection:

A “cling-on,” a “barnacle.”

Demeaning labels we

slur her with. No

compassion for the place of

pain she’s running from.

 

 

And time and time again we’ve

confined her to the role of the

perfect sacrificial Mother.

Molding herself on generations

of self-denial and lack of self-

expression; putting the needs

of everybody else before her own.

 

Caught in the busyness

of life she shrugs aside

her desires; pours her life

force energy into others.

Giving away her Essence; she

drains the vitality, the spark

of life that makes her who

she is. One day she

awakens to the hollowness

inside and wonders

– through her exhaustion –

where the joy in giving has

gone and who on earth

she is beyond  it all.

 

Or perhaps the Whore.

 

Flagrant, sexual,

bawdy, lewd. Too much

Woman for many with

her overt sexuality, her

loving embrace of her

physicality, desires and

passion.

 

A woman who loves

her body and the way it

feels?

 

Besmirch her name.

Immure her in the margins.

 

No way her voice can be

allowed to be heard.

 

 

The patriarchy has exerted

its control by divisively

labeling women. Attempted

to reduce and confine

Her Wholeness to

certain prescribed roles.

 

Making of women cardboard

cut-outs; one-dimensional

mannikins.

 

Limited.

 

Limiting.

 

We will allow it no more.

 

 

We stand in our Power as

Women when we dismantle,

obliterate, annihilate these

stereotypes. Raze them

to the ground in the

atoning flame of our

Wholeness.

 

Honoring our feminine essence in

all its myriad expression.

 

Celebrating ourselves

in all our Truth.

 

Honoring the medley of

archetypes – the sometimes-

melodious sometimes-

disharmonious – but always

beautiful converging that is

Who We Are.

 

We are not here to be delineated or

easily defined.

 

As complete, fully-embodied

Women we know ourselves as

Absolute, as Perfect – in the

embodiment of our contradictions.

 

Untamed;

Unrestrained.

 

Beautiful containers for

All of Who We Are.

 

Our bodies the Sacred space

in which our unique,

individualized expression

of Divine Feminine resides.

 

The Body the Sacred vessel for the Soul.

 

The two conjoined.

Unified in

one beautiful, sacred,

fecund and glorious Life.

 

The diversity of “Woman”

brought into Wholeness in

the sacrament of

Soul-Body

Body-Soul.

 

Maiden, Martyr, Virgin, Whore, Wild Woman,

Witch, Crone.

 

Heterogeneous; Integrated; Whole.

 

This is the “Woman” I’m

embracing.

 

This is the

“Woman” I

choose to embody.

 

I am My Wild; My Innocence; My

Passion; My Timidity; My Love; My Compassion; My

Sensuous pleasure; My Wisdom; My Peace; My Rage; My

Naivety; My Sovereignty; My Vulnerability; My Serenity; My

Boldness; My Fear; My Courage; My Bliss.

 

I Am My All.

 

Rooted in the

Womb of the Earth; Her

volcanic Power igniting

my Womb.

 

Connected to the

Universe; its life-

giving force enlivening

my Essence.

 

I Am “Woman.”

 

I honor the Goddess within.

 

 

 

 

The Energies are Ripe for Release & Transmutation

It's the start of a New Year and the energies are really intense. A great time for releasing old patterns and stepping up into something new.
Image courtesy of geralt.

Bam-wham. Is it just me or is the Universe working at a really accelerated rate to get us to where we want to be – and where It wants us to be – right now?

These last few weeks through the end of 2016 and the first few days of 2017 have felt like an energetic ball of fire blowing through me. Swirling up dozens of my patterns, bringing them up for release.

Among the multitude of things that have come up for me are an old, old pattern from childhood – an incident I knew was of significance but had no idea quite how much – that had me putting constant checks on how I allowed myself to be in my interactions with others.

Glad to get to the root of that one.

Now to integrate the awareness that it’s Safe to be me, whether other people like and accept Authentic Me or not.

There’s also been a lot coming up around control.

My tendency towards obedience to rules without questioning. My irrational fear of authority figures. My ingrained pattern of submitting and yielding my power to both those in societal positions of power; and those who I feel are somehow superior to me – whether that be in strength, age, wisdom, knowledge or experience.

My co-dependent tendencies that have allowed me to be manipulated and controlled by others in relationship.

The same tendencies that have had me also trying to manipulate and control others – particularly their opinions of me.

Always striving to be the kind, compassionate, loving friend, colleague or partner who overlooks and forgives. Justifying and rationalizing behavior that dishonors me or the relationship out of a long-nursed fear of losing the other person’s love if I allow the Kali-infused incensed part of my personality that wants to honor my Truth to raise its voice.

Swallowing my pain instead of asking for what I need.

My new commitment to myself is to voice my needs and what I desire to experience, even when I’m scared of the possible consequences.

I am trusting that what is meant for me will stay; the rest be blown away in the wind.

More “stuff” coming up around the way I give my authority and power away to others by taking on too much advice and too many opinions instead of allowing myself to be the only and sovereign power in my life.

Choosing to deepen into trusting my intuitive knowing about the path my Soul is leading me on instead.

Clearing and releasing around the ways I have dishonored others and allowed them to dishonor me.

Committing to step up into a more authentic relationship with my Voice in relationships with others.

Accepting that it’s okay for others to be upset with me sometimes. That I’m probably not being true to myself if they’re not.

Letting go of my need to “control” and take responsibility for things that are not mine.

Setting myself free of all that extraneous, unnecessary drama.

Starting to let people be who they are without trying to change or “save” them.

Letting the world be what it is without resistance.

Being okay with “what is” however that presents. Knowing some things are beyond my control and others – yes, you got it – nothing to do with me.

Releasing the feeling that I need to make things better for people; “rescue” them from their pain; or take their problem away.

Knowing it is only when we face our pain and come through it that we reap the seeds of true joy and authenticity; that I dishonor others when I take their experience away.

So much forgiveness coming up, too.

Forgiveness for myself.

Forgiveness for former partners.

Forgiveness up and down my ancestral lines.

Forgiveness also asked for the whole of humanity and the way we have dishonored the Earth, ourselves, each other.

Issues around abundance rising to the surface; an opening up to receive more of mine.

Releasing my distrust and dislike of the feminine.

The part of me that perceives it as weak, submissive, unvoiced, powerless.

The part of me that perceives it as wild, sensual, passionate, untamed: is scared of embracing that power.

Awakening to the knowing that I desire to embody the Divine in a more feminine way. To not only deepen into meditation and spiritual practices; but to also embrace the vital, alive, playful and sensuous being that is the feminine embodiment of all that I Am.

Opening up; allowing myself to be expressed as a fully-embodied sensual woman. Exploring what that means for me.

Allowing myself to reclaim all the places where I’ve held myself back for fear of being “too much.”

Giving myself permission to be a strong and powerful woman; not just a soft and gentle one.

Embracing – whispering words of comfort and strength to – my resistance, my fear around being vulnerable; my resistance and fear around being seen; being fully me; relinquishing my habit of making myself “smaller” and “less than” so I fit in better with what society wants and/or expects of me.

Allowing myself to step into and own my magnificence; the light and radiance that I Am.

Many of these are things that I’ve worked on before: now I’m revisiting them on a deeper level.

They’ve been released and cleared – to the extent that is possible for me at this time – with help from my guides and angels; the Archangels and Masters. Also an exceptionally well-timed T.I.M.E. Heal session with Lisa Jo Davis, ZPoint session with Reba Linker, and Soul sessions with Michaela Jane of Step Into Your True Power And Shine and Total Goddess Immersion.

I know these patterns are not necessarily 100% cleared. I know we’re always a work in progress – that there’s always more love and expansiveness we can grow into.

I don’t need to be told that I now need to translate these a-ha moments and the stuff I’ve cleared around them into real and discernible change in my life.

But I also know that a significant amount of transformation and the transmuting of these energies has already taken place. It’s felt huge, powerful, expansive and life-changing.

With the unexpected sighting of Venus on January second – I felt drawn to go outside for a walk shortly before dusk and when I looked at the sky I had no idea what to think. It was like there was a very bright and unusually placed star close to, and in perfect alignment with, the moon. I felt a powerful surge of energy fill me as I gazed on these two orbs of light in the night sky; seemingly so close, yet so far away.

On returning home and finding out it was Venus, I did a bit of Internet sleuthing.

“Venus is a very advanced spiritual place, with highly developed arts and a fantastic system of spiritual healing and cosmic schools,” I read.*

Yes, I am totally ready to receive and welcome some more of that energy into my cells and life.

It felt like yet another confirmation of the miraculous and game-changing time we are living in.

I am so thankful to the guides, angels and Masters who have helped – and are helping – me to clear so much with ease and grace; who nudged me to go outside at just the right time to experience the Cosmos align in this way.

It feels like we are being called to open up to and expand into so much more of our power and Truth.

I feel the Universe there guiding and supporting us every step of the way; sending guides and angels and the perfect healing modalities to intercede for us as we do.

Yes, the Universe really does have my/(our) back(s).

I know my strength and my power do not lie in my Ego; but in my Soul, the Oversoul and my connection to Divine Source.

In trusting in, surrendering to, that connection.

May I continue to allow myself to expand into more of my authentic power; an ever-more intimate relationship with Source.

May we all continue to expand into more of our authentic power and an ever-more intimate relationship with our Source.

I am sending out love and golden rays of light, peace and joy to be with you at the start of this New Year my friends.

Full steam ahead into 2017, and whatever it may bring.

*Quote taken from https://wherethelightcomes.com/questions-and-answers/

The Moon and Venus, January 2, 2017.

A tanka about the beauty of the night sky and the alignment of the waxing moon and Venus.

Bright crescent moon and

Venus ablaze in the sky

emanating light

as dusk gravitates towards

night. A new era is born.

I Am

An inspirational poem of affirmations about stepping up into your power which will resonate with journeyers on the path of awakening from delvingdeepwithin.wordpress.com.
Image courtesy of Maialisa.

I am choosing to

expand into

a deeper experience

of the beauty and

perfection that is

my Soul.

 

I am choosing to

know myself as

aligned with,

in harmony with,

resonant with

that Infinite perfection.

 

I am choosing to

let go –

release,

transform…

transcend,

all that no longer serves.

 

Through the Sacred

alchemy of

my life

I transmute it

into gold.

 

I am choosing

to know myself

as the Infinite and

Sovereign being

that is who I Am.

 

I am choosing to

claim my power.

To step into and

Own my

I Am Presence.

 

I am choosing

to experience myself

as Expectant with

my Soul’s desires;

ripe, and ready to blossom.

 

I am choosing

to Trust in

Sacred Timing, the

Master Plan of

the Divine.

 

I am choosing

to stand strong

in my Integrity,

knowing that I cannot

miss that which is

meant for me.

 

I am choosing to

be willing,

be ready,

be open.

 

I am choosing to

be a clear and pure

vessel so the

love of Source can

flow through me.

 

I am choosing to

believe I am

equal to that which

lies ahead; to

trust that the Path

will be revealed.

 

I am choosing to

trust in the Journey; to

tread with confidence,

knowing my Soul

guides  me true.

 

I am choosing to

Trust in Source;

the all-knowing

all-encompassing

Universe.

 

I am choosing to

Trust in  Me;

the Infinite

all-knowing

part of Me.

Stand In Your Sovereignty

(While fully admitting that politics isn’t my forte, I felt compelled to try to say something that might speak to the events of this year).

2016 has been a year of unpredicted whirlwind changes on the world stage.

June saw approximately half of UK voters cast their vote to leave the EU.

That night I watched the number of constituencies voting to leave steadily rise with a sick sense of disbelief deep in the pit of my stomach.

I wasn’t the only one.

“What have we done?” asked one of my friends on Facebook. (A Remain voter).

“How can this be happening?” were the first words of another.

With an eerie sense of deja vu, I’ve seen many American friends express the same sense of shock and disbelief in the wake of the Presidential elections.

Both the UK and the USA – despite their umpteen deplorable mistakes that have left deep scars on the face of history – have been in many ways proponents of humanitarian values.

We now find ourself in the situation where they are – politically speaking – leaning heavily towards the right.

This seems to have given hardcore nationalism, white supremacy and the minuscule percentage of people who subscribe to them the license to rear their ugly heads. Spates of xenophobia and other hate crimes followed close behind in both countries.

Although it is edifying to see the amount of support for the targeted minorities and that these incidents have been swiftly dealt with by the authorities, it is easy to surmise that the political, moral and ethical landscape in the UK and the US has shifted beyond recognition.

It is as if the values that we thought our countries stood for have been swept away from under our feet.

Overnight.

People from both sides of the political spectrum feel the pain of this.

Many who were on the “losing side” feel that far exceeding any personal sense of loss, the result is a loss for the nation; a loss for the world.

Stranded in this sea of uncertainty and tumultuous change many of us feel anchorless. Ungrounded. Like strangers in our homeland.

We are shaken to our core; no longer able to identify with the badge of belonging which has been ours for so long.

In this sea of dismay and despair, it can be easy to feel like we have little say in the way our lives are determined.

We can feel like our lives are controlled by external events; forces bigger than us – things that are beyond our control.

When we do, we give away our power.

The truth is that we are the biggest force in our own lives.

We are the source of our power.

 

Reeling after the Brexit decision back in June, it took me a couple of days to remember that I am the authority in my own life and reclaim my power.

When I did, I wrote these words:

“I am not defined by my nationality. I can and do choose to embrace inclusive values, love and compassion; even if the leader(s) of my country or some of my fellow countrymen do not. I can hope that the leadership that emerges will also choose to embrace these and other such noble qualities. I can commit to doing all that is within my power to sow seeds of love that will grow in the hearts and lives of others and to spread compassion in the world.”

 

This is where our power resides:

In our response.

 

We always have the power to choose the way we want to show up in the world.

We always have the power to choose the values we want to uphold and embody.

 

That the political, moral and ethical landscape is always changing is not a fact we often consider.

Referendums and presidential elections may emphasize and draw our attention to this; but the political arena is not where the moral and ethical landscapes of our countries are created.

The power to create the moral and ethical landscape of our nation resides within us: in the moment-to-moment choices we make, and the values we source them in.

 

As sovereign beings, we always have the power of choice.

We have the power to choose who we want to be and how we want to show up in the world – how we want to act, speak and respond – in each and every moment of our lives.

 

The current state of the world is calling us to step up into that power.

To claim our authority.

To develop increasing mastery of ourself.

To bring more consciousness to the world we are co-creating together.

To step into the fullness of our power as co-creators.

 

It is asking each one of us to examine who we are and who we want to be.

It is asking us to examine our values.

It is asking us to commit to all that we believe is good and pure and true.

It is asking us to uphold these things.

 

It is asking us to do these things now.

So that we can create a better world for ourselves, and for each other.

 

Now is the time for us to shine our light.

Without the darkness of the night, the brilliance of the new day cannot be seen or comprehended.

The darkness of intolerance, greed and hate; disrespect for each other, our fellow creatures and our planet is the stark contrast that is calling us to boldly shine our light forth in the world as never before.

The world needs our light.

The inequalities, divisions and discriminations that have permeated our society for so long; deeply embedded but all too often denied and discounted; have at last broken the surface and are exposed, in plain view for all to see.

This sense of decline we feel; this sense that as a nation, and as nations, our collective backs have been turned and we have regressed to the divisive politics of bygone years – this is our medicine.

This is what – if we allow it, will empower us to diagnose and treat the greed, superiority and hatred; the politics of fear and division; the legacy of suspicion and mistrust of difference that is a cancerous cell embedded deep within the heart of humanity.

 

We cannot treat a disease that we do not know  is there.

Nor one which we refuse to acknowledge.

 

We have made gigantic leaps and bounds in many parts of the world towards embracing inclusive policies and equal rights. It is right that we should celebrate this.

Now the shadow has come into plain view again so that we can heal it on an even deeper and more profound level.

 

It is not the politicians and world leaders who have the ability do this; though they have their role to play.

 

The power resides with us.

 

It is up to each one of us to take on the task of healing and transmuting the darkness. Turning it into light:

One loving thought at a time; one loving word at a time; one loving act at a time.

 

We begin with ourself.

Noticing the shadow within us – the places where we act from fear, greed and hate – surrendering it; breathing in love instead.

The love we breathe in is a love that embraces the whole of humanity.

A love that embraces the whole of life.

It is akin to the concept of love expressed in the word Namaste:

I honor the place in you in which the entire Universe dwells, I honor the place in you which is of Love, of Integrity, of Wisdom and of Peace. When you are in that place in you, and I am in that place in me, we are One.

 

The question to ask ourself is are we acting from this space of Love?

Are the moment-to-moment choices we are making coming from this space in which we honor the whole of humanity, the whole of life, as expressions of divine Source; each equally worthy, each deserving of our love and compassion?

Are the moment-to-moment choices we make – choosing one thought over another; one word in place of another; one action instead of another – grounded in love and compassion; rooted in a desire for the freedom of all sentient beings to live happy and fulfilling lives?

 

We extend this love into the lives of the people around us by:

Choosing thoughts, words and deeds that respect and honor.

Choosing thoughts, words and deeds that offer solidarity, peace, joy and hope.

Choosing thoughts, words and deeds that bridge differences and build connection.

Choosing thoughts, words and deeds that seek to understand and find value in others; that let be and continue to treat with respect and dignity those with whom we find ourselves to be irreconcilable with in some way.

Choosing thoughts, words and deeds that unite us in our common humanity, whilst also respecting its multifaceted faces.

Choosing thoughts, words and deeds that join us together in mutual compassion and understanding, discarding those that drive us apart.

 

As each of us chooses to act from this space of love and compassion, as this ripples out into the lives of the people around us, we change the moral and ethical landscape of our nation.

This is the tremendous force of the power that resides within us.

 

The power to choose and – by our choices – change the face of our nation.

The power to choose and – by our choices – change the face of the world.

 

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